October In His Hands...

october marks one year since i struggled with being super sick.  this october was definitely in His hands and for that i am grateful.  we started off the month with conference.  you can see the boys tearing apart an old computer while watching.  i had to keep their attention in the house somehow...it was beautiful outside!  the messages from conference were awesome!  i can't wait to review what i heard in the ensign this month.

we went to the farmstead for fhe one monday with all the family that could make it.  fun was had by all!  there was a jumping pillow, co2 wars, the creature, a corn maze, and a pumpkin cannon.

september and october were flag football months for bentley!  he played with the marsing mavericks this year, still the optimist league.  it made getting to practice and many of the games...much easier for me.  and he didn't mind!  he played on the offensive line and seemed to enjoy what was going on.  i think if he practiced, he could really take off...but i am glad he is happy and enjoys what he is doing, no matter.

we had a few school days off in october.  one of them was the best!  just home...cleaning, chores, a beautiful fall day, a trip to marsing to get emerson from preschool and stop at the dollar store.  we roasted pumpkin seeds, shot bb guns, went with dad until the window shattered in the tractor:(, made an apple pie, went for a walk...ect.  it was perfect!

we worked on harvesting and cleaning out our garden.  we have dug a lot of carrots!!  and everyone loves them.  we've been on 4 wheeler rides and also smashing cinder blocks and wearing strange outfits (bridon with a life jacket under his sweatshirt)!! and the hulk hands to deliver dad his dinner.

the girls and i went on about the coldest day of the month to the pumpkin patch with emerson's preschool.  we left a little early but still had fun.  she has also started taking dance.  i got to go in and watch her one day this month.  what a cute witch!  she is really coming out of her shell.

and ellee was interested in the potty for awhile but not so much anymore.  she hides under her bed, behind the couch, or here we have her in the broom closet to 'do her business.'

 there was more to this month than being grateful for my health.  i went in for my first ob dr's appointment this month, with a feeling the entire time that something was wrong.  both dr's couldn't find a heartbeat.  i miscarried at 13 weeks.  so, september and october were kind of a daze for me with being sick, absolutely exhausted, and worried.  and, then, finally knowing what was wrong and dealing with all of that.  so many people around us were so kind.  these trials teach me so much.  and this one was no exception.  back in july, we attended the temple and i knew another spirit needed to come to our family...and that it would come to "receive it's physical body."  i could have known that in no other way and it helped me deal with what happened and be at peace with it...life's lessons are not always easy, but He is right there, if we will let Him in.