You're Going to Miss This

on days when i think i am completely losing my marbles with 3 kids under the age of 4, when bentley won't listen, bridon makes a huge mess and is chewing baby wipes again, and emerson has colic, i think of this song. it is true, i will miss this, and i will want it back, and i will wish these days hadn't gone by so fast! i hope i don't seem like a stressed out, anxious, and lethargic mother because i do enjoy this on most days (sorry if you've caught me on a bad one). i love all the questions from bentley and his love of people. i love how he catches on to things so quickly and the cute things he says like telling gma abt the pioneer movie (legacy) and how the really mean people who don't listen to their moms put 'grease and snow' on joseph smith. i love how when i take the boys to have lunch or for a picnic we can split a sandwich in thirds and eat for way under $10 (i'm sure that won't happen in the teenage years), or just the fun we have at the park, throwing rocks in the canal, or on our recent field trip to the dairy (that was crazy with all 3)! i love how he wants to learn and help! right now, i love bridon's new words. before emry was born, i actually had him tested for delayed speech, but his vocabulary is really picking up. his funniest words are 'mil-KKH!' and 'naughty'. he loves to do things himself, like put on his boots and his hat. both him and bentley LOVE going with their daddy. bridon cries and cries if bentley gets to go without him, so sometimes ben takes him alone, like when bentley went to pre-school yesterday. and, it is so fun to hear bridon sing along to the primary cd. on the way home from church last week, i could hear him back there clapping and saying 'eyes' when 'if you're happy and you know it' came on. at that moment, i had an overwhelming feeling that this is what i am supposed to be doing and that it is right and that it will go by faster than i know it. miss emry has been colicy as of late. i've tried formula and drops so far. i'm not sure how drastic i should get in changing things, or if i'm just re-living bridon and don't realize it. i see progress for a few days and then a day or a nite of crazy crying. hmmm... whatever the reason, she sure is cute and we love her.
it is so fun making hair bows for her and (ok, not that fun anymore) trying to get the perfect picture in our continued, blustery weather (can i just get one to turn out looking professional?!!), seeing a smile, and watching her grow. i think i try to pack too many expectations into my day sometimes and need to set smaller goals, but then there's painting, the office, the garden, my weight, cooking, you know...life, but i don't think i'll miss any of this, i'm in the middle of it, and i love being a mom!